I no longer feel close to anyone...
I feel like i'm in my own world again...
I lost it , totally lost it...
Seeing Heshen and XR even my Darr really growing
they become so close to the people whom i used to be so close with ...
always seeing them having fun,
hearing that they go out with each other
i felt left out somehow.
i just feel awkward when we get tgt
like a missing piece of puzzle that just can't fit in.
Sometimes i will just walk away just to avoid the awkward feeling...

Maybe u all will say do something abt it then ,
Maybe u all will say start moving too...
Maybe u all have already given up ...

Emotions lock up...
The close feeling , " Family " it's no longer there
am i at fault at the first place?
to be so nonsense...
not catching up...

i'm sorry i just have to post all my emotions out...
to make myself feel better...