His Footsteps

Sunday, August 31, 2008

IT JUST HURTS ME ~

Baby ~

To tell u honestly

I was shock when u said " LIKE FATHER , LIKE DAUGHTER MA "

only u know what i mean~

I was totally stun when i heard that

I kept quiet for awhile

suddenly my mind went blank

my heart feel like a knife just being stab in

I knew i've lost something already

i dunno what to do

tears start forcing out of my eyes but i tired to hold it back by raising my head

u can hear it from my voice that i'm down

took that courage to ask u that serious Q

u know what that Q is bahh ?

Although ur answer is NO~

but how come i still feel the insecure in my heart

It hurts & it bleeds ~

The freedom that u WANTED~

The freedom that u NEEDED~

The freedom u LONG FOR~

WHAT HAPPEN ???

Lots more things in my heart but hard to express it out

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I'm crying out to God

For the peace

For the Joy

For the Comfort

For the Love

Take away all the confusion

clear my doubts

clean my heart

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Monday, August 18, 2008

Do you even care ???

Seriously, i dunno if i should be sad or i should be angry
Should i cry or should i bang the wall ...
Sometimes i just feel so irritated when you give me a last minute thing
it's always so last minute that i just dunno how to react...
I've waited and waited
then there u go and cancel it off
what u wan me to do now ?

The best way and the best thing that u can do is not to reply
just to avoid or even say " I dunno what to say "
AHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!
WHATEVER !!!

I know i'm sick
so ?
No big deal wad
everyone also will sick de wad
But u also know i love it when people care about me
When people show that they love me
SHOW ------- See this word ???

I actually thought of not sms ing you wait until u sms me
but i dunno what the hell is wrong with me
i worry that u keep playing then forget to study then i go sms u =.="
when i am still angry/sad somemore ...
lalala ~ whatever ~

I dunno if i'm in the wrong or u're in the wrong
i just know i feel terribly today
whateva i do seems so wrong
i dunno why. i dunno why .

thought that things seems ok le
wanna concern only but the attitude u gave made me lalala ~ again
not like i say dun let u play wad
just reminding u only then u shout " i very tired la "
=.= " =.= " =.= " =.="
how should i react now ???

Guess I'm just doing too much ...

Labels: You Know What I Need~

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Sad Sad,Happy Happy~~

Hmm it's been quite some time ever since i last post
due to Exams and stuff
Many things has been happening in my life
Unhappy things,Dissapointment etc .
I Have been Spritually very dry
But now ok liao larhh so don't worry

Tuesday:
After school went to meet Darr Darr
cause Wed got SS exam
then i ask him to teach me
Suprisingly,
all the things that he had taught me came out for exam !!!
He only taught me Inference,Compare & Contrast, Usefulness
and exam came out exactly these three
in the same order somemore
haha ~
Went to Bedok library to study
we joke joke abit first
i keep asking him IQ Question
but all lame lame that kind
After that he scold me
Darr : U come here study ur SS or come here ask me joke ar ???
Then i Diam Diam quickly take out notepad le
hahahaha ...
One thing very Lame when he teach me
He ownself compose things lorhh ...
Let me show u what he had written

Usefulness:
-Write how useful is the source in providing what the Qns says
-Write how not useful is the source in providing what the Qns says
Quote from other sources and support or refute the source
EG.Qns: How useful is source D in telling u that Michelle is chio ?
Ans: Source D is useful in telling us that Michelle is chio because the source says " she is damm chio "
Ans: Source D is not useful in telling us Michelle is Chio because it does tell us how chio she is ,the source only says " she is damm chio "
Source D is useful /not useful in telling us Michelle is chio because it is supported/does not support by source.Source D says " bla bla bla " while Source Bla says " bla bla bla "
LOL
Aiyo my Baby is so damm lame lorhh
make me keep laughing lorhh

Wednesday:
After cca ,
went to Parkway de Mac to celebrate Jie yun's b day
haha Amy & Nat prepare a susprise for her
we sang her a birthday song haha
she was blushing LOL
we sang so loudly that almost everyone was looking at us lorhh
haha went home around 5 45 liddat cause next day still got exam de so can't go home too late
Felicia wasn't able to come for CCA
so she never join us for dinner also
Hmmm i find myself that day very guai lorhh
cause i so many weeks never go CCA liao but on Wed i went !!!
I know no big deal larhh
but ya lorhh
to me it's like something larhh

Thursday:
Got Bio & Chem Exam
T__T
I fail my Chem cause i forget to bring home my chem textbook to study
so totally never touch on chem lorhh

Baby made me feel so touched today
i was crying on my way home lorhh
On the bus somemore
This is the conversation with Darr when i'm on the bus going home
Me : BABY !!! I failed my CHEM lorhh :(
Darr:Then Bio leh ?
ME:Bio still dunno... But i got a bad feeling
Darr:I love you darr!!! Don't feel down over ur chem...
just sudy harder for ur next subjects ... :) ME: Hmmm Darr i cannot make it larhh. Fail so many subject.I feel so dumb
Darr:Ur not dumb...Ur juz sleepy =P
ME:Fail so many sub leh ... NOT DUMB???
Darr: Darr cheer up
la..u fail this time still got EOYe ma...then now u juz pay more attention in class and study harder lor
ME:Haix dunno la sometimes just don't have the motivation to study hard or even pay attention in class.
Darr: I also liddat. My parents only ask me study.I pass the test they also nv praise me ...But JUS THINK OF ME !!! hehehe I will praise u if u do well de ma ^^
ME:Don't make me cry on bus larhh.Later they think i siao de Muacks ! Thx Darr! I LOVE YOU !
Darr:Haha I love you too Er is your English Good ?
ME:Heh Heh My situational writing got 19/30 nia so not counted good .
Darr: Hmmm... Okay la 19...cuz u still got two more year to practice...Darr Darr Guai la. Later buy something for you then pass to u on sat lor ...
ME: Heh heh heh Darr you make me smile le la :) I LOVE YOU !

Friday:
as usual
CELL GROUP !!! A SUPER GOOD MSG !!! [[KEEPING YOUR FAITH]]

Saturday:
(16.08.08 Sat ) Me, My brother & mummy went to cycle
never go for service yesterday cause as having fever & keep coughing
poor me !!! Gonna miss my Usher training 3 lorhh
sad sad ~~~
Christopher they complete liao leh !!!
i still have to wait till next week T__T
OK larhh back ...
Yupp as i was saying ,Went to cycle ...
i wasn't feeling well so after cycle awhile i sat down & rest le
I look up to the sky
feeling the wind gently blowing on my face
suddenly i feel down
Just some stuff thats making me think
[[ Making The Right Decision ]]
These Four words affect my mood
hmmm...
I know it's telling me something
something ~

T__T SOBX SOBX ...
High Fever !!!
Cough Cough !!!
FLU FLU !!!
aiyoyo
my whole family sick then i also kena
tsk tsk tsk ~

Labels: Your Tender Loving Care ~

Thursday, August 7, 2008

I need someone to hold me tight

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide
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I need someone to just give me a hug
so tight until i can't breathe
Will there be a person to do that ?

I need a shoulder to cry on
someone's shirt to hold my tears
Will there be a person who is willing to do that ?

I'm not being Emo again...
just need to let my emotions out
Endless fights hurts my heart
When will it stop ???

As i come into ur pressence each day
I pray hard that ur Love will just fill me
Make me whole
Lord i need you now ~

Labels: I need someone to hold me tight and tell me it's alright

lalalala ~

It's been like around 5 days since i last post ???
sorry sorry ...
was kind of busy larhh
so yarhh

First lets start today's post with a birthday greeting !
hahaha ...
yupp yupp
would like to say a HAPPY B DAY to my ohsosuperdupergreatloveable KOR !!!
hahaha ~
really very happy to get to know u even more as u share with me about u,ur life etc.
No need to thank me for helping u solve the doubts in ur heart all that
I'm being a friend,a very good friend right haha
someone whom u can talk to

Moving on ...
had biology lesson on tuesday
it was so OMG larhh
Ms Koh brought us to the lab and say that we going to Cut a SHEEP's HEART lorhh
wth wth larhh
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
So disgusting lorhh
smelly smelly also
but overall had fun haha ~

After school went to science centre with 302
this trip was susgested by our class haha
reach there le~
First destination : Omni theatre
Second destination : Main science centre
Third destination : Walk in the world of water thingy
haha took quite alot of pic
we all siao siao le
go there talk pic only
lalalalalalalalalalalalala ~~~
so yarhh lorhh
after that go back school liao
this trip somehow made me really learn to relax myself
cause i was kind of stressed up with my upcoming CA3 & F&N
but felt better after this trip =^-^=

NOW ~
Lets look at some of the pic i took during bio lesson and during our trip to science centre

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Can u spot me ???

I KISS THE DINO !!! awwwww ~~~

Saturday, August 2, 2008

LIVING RAIN

I'm in Love with this song !!!
Living rain
The lyrics is so meaningful
Really enjoy listening to it for over & over again
cause i'm addicted to it haha

Today went for F.O.P WOOTS !!!
actually thought i going alone de but last minute CG cancelled so at least now got ppl go with me (:
was super super excited for it !!!
started off with praise songs & den worship abit ~~~
A VERY GOOD MSG FROM DR.REV MARK CONNER
-PEACE
-ENOURAGEMENT
-COMFORT
-FEAR OF GOD

These are the four things we learn about today
was touched by the pressence of GOD
I need the comfort,the peace from u Lord
I lift up every burden into ur hands
Clear all my emotions,Hurts...

After service headed home & here i am posting lorhh (:
sry ar today post kind of little cause i am super super tired after a long day of school then still went for service
but i was impacted
now i know how i am suspose to encourage other ppl
what i need to do or rather what i can do for them

Was very happy that catherine came to church with me today
we had real fun & i really get to know her abit more
and know what i need to do to help her
really help her get to know God even better
& really know how much God actually Love her

I wan BENNY HIN's BOOKS:
Good Morning , Holy spirit
Got discount also 3 books for just $ 10
but T_T i can cry le cause i evern $1 also don't have le