Haix...
I am sick again ...
having fever on & off...
it's just so terribly

I've really make a point that this year can't be like last year already ...
slack slack all that
so yeah...
it's just the 3rd day of school nia but i already so shag ...
just take a look at me can le...
i look super old sudddenly...
so qiao cui...
so many datelines to meet ...
i will soon go crazy le ...

no one is there to encourage or be there for me ...
it really feels terribly...
everyday end school i make my way home to study le
i am just not used to the way it is now but i will need to get used to it...
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to be honest i have the thought of suicide AGAIN...
wrong ... everything is wrong ...
i really need to cry my all out...

i seem so unhappy recently...
in my relationship :
some things i have to watch out for...
some things i need to try not to do...
some things i can't do...
it became rather dry...
i dunno if i should do sth abt it or sit still & just wait...
i can slowly see the changes though...

in my family :
i dunno whether to love them even more or continue to have the needle in my heart
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